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Superficial Me by distopia, literature

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Superficial Me

For your pleasure, I made a superficial me I constructed something simple so there could be a "we." It was easy to pretend because I wanted to believe I could hide my cracks, my holes... my needs... and my vulnerabilities. But what is lost in the trade between comfort and authenticity? The price was too much to pay... I found the cost... was me. ...in my entirity... I abandoned free style dancing for catious little steps. I exchanged speaking my mind for tightly holding my breath. I went to bed at 10 instead of staying up all night I gave in time and time again. I lost my will to fight.

Epigenetic Principle by distopia, literature

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Epigenetic Principle

Like an unfinished poem I'm still struggling with the rhyme Trying to establish the rhythm and meaning of my unwritten life. The further in I go The less certain of where I am. The more my steps are planned the less I'm sure of where I stand. Take me to the spontaneous. Reveal to me something new. What mysteries are left inside myself? What mysteries are left in you?

SMS by distopia, literature

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SMS

Be honest with yourself, Even if it isn't easy -especially if it hurts. It’s the only way to heal, To learn, to grow. It's your only hope. You nurture sick feelings- Clinging like bacteria to a wound Never recovering or discovering change You never venture from what you know. You are the Mistress of Nothingness Goddess of Empty Dreams Neglecting how things are… Too concerned with how they seem.

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Kissing Roses by distopia, literature

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Kissing Roses

Receiving a rose, what a joy that is this, a tender sensuality, when lips are applied to kiss. It has a certain mystery, in its blossum, stem, and leaf. As it stands- so alone, in angelic grief. A rose has both sorrow and beauty and as if they were the same. Like being in love, and then embracing- all of its sweet pain. And in the occuring of little time, in just the passing of a couple days, the pedals begin to fall, and the flower begins its decay. No less is it a ross from a bud to its dwindling days, it is a flower, of radiant power, until it fades way.

Dying Ember by distopia, literature

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Dying Ember

I scribble words into my book for only my eyes to see Void of passion. Void of life. I mourn who I used to be. Digging deep into my soul I seek answers in my heart Finding only emptiness I tear my soul apart. Quietly I surrender Everything I am Strangely i suffer damned by my own hands. I burn as a dying ember, dim, soft, and frail, fading slowly on the ground in the night's stale air.

tiny little space by distopia, literature

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tiny little space

stationed in the quiet emptiness of shadow, sweet still darkness lay all around me guarding me. my skin is too soft for the light. i\'m safe in my disclosure. clothes hang all around me, drape over me like gentle little ghosts keeping me company. my closet floor is a sanctuary unlike any other. cradled in the corner i find solice. my eyes close and i think of you. stiff and confused. good and bad swirling in the space above my head. i can touch the air and feel something more. depth and dimension. layer upon delicate layer. i\'m peeling. the more i find the less i know. the more the light the less that shows. i\'m rising a

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Deviant for 20 years
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Operating System: caffine
Shell of choice: sea
Skin of choice: Soft
Favourite cartoon character: Courage the Cowardly Dog and Batman
Personal Quote: "Who knew a water cooler could make a handy wang coffin?"-- Bender, Futurama

Favourite Movies

Fight Club, matrix movies, kill bill 1+2, & I heart huckabies

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

The Beatles, Tool, Linkin Park, Hole, and Madonna...

Favourite Writers

Alexander Pope and Emily Dickenson

Favourite Games

Diablo II.

Favourite Gaming Platform

xbox. game cube. pc.

Other Interests

psychology, philosophy, movies, music, poetry, and doodling

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distopia

Aug 10, 2006

Update

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I haven't been very active on here lately, it seems alot of people have lost interest in DeviantArt. I think I like the updated look, or maybe I just like it because its different. Regardless, its a welcomed change. I've joined the ranks of MySpace junkies like so many others. http://www.myspace.com/liliesandpan. This morning I had alot of time to kill and I've had (and still have to) be very very quiet so I looked over every single deviation I've made in DA, and I checked out my friend's pages and things I've faved... and even though this site is pretty much dead nowadays and I've lost contact with most of the friends I made on here I still

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distopia

Jul 11, 2006

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May 31, 2006

Summer Lazing

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I'm past feeling stir crazy, I'm now relaxing. :) I have job #2 lined up for when I graduate. I wrote the Gallup Organization asking if they had internships available in Dallas, and they said no, but we got to talking anyways and the lady said she wanted to have me full time and I should call her in January. Alrighty. :) The other job I have lined up is teaching at a community college. Both jobs will be available to me at the same time, but pay decently... but i'm much more interested in the Gallup Organization. It sounds more exciting to me, combining my love of politics with psychology. So yeah :) I've been just lazing around, reading, writ